Anger As A Gift

All I need is a little rest to cool the brakes, I'm still looking for a red light. Can you take me in your world and leave me there, overtake me with a smile. I just feel I'm safe in your arms, I just feel I'm safe. Searched your trace on open roads, no time to fall, where the hell is my red light? Too much coffee in my blood... I'll need some more, give me meanings for the road.

It seems I'm tired of your play, too much complaining in your head, a bitch is crying less than you, I'm on my way. I've seen the worst but you're on top, a lizard crawling on the ground, pretending it’s the way you live. I'll watch you fall. I said don't bleed, don’t bleed on my face! So when you talk the monkey comes, a real performance for a whore, pretending is the way you live. I'll watch you fall. There's no mercy in my words, well, there is no truth beneath your chords, I'm what you see, I'm in your face, not scared at all. I said don't bleed, don’t bleed on my face!

It doesn't look the same since you embraced your rest, they've kept on telling me you're in a better place. I knew it right along, was just a friendly lie, how can a mother place herself above her child? So everytime I find myself around a church I feel in my left hand my anger's quiet torch. Wish I had the nerve to burn it to the ground, my greetings for a god unwanted in my heart. Anger is all that's left, anger stays in my chest, anger keeps me awake, can you take my anger away? I've kept on going further since that stupid day, to prove the trust you gave, to carry on your name, and every day I wait my anger to go free, a kingdom and a horse for just a better me. From time to time I lie myself to feed the smile, illusions for a tiny taste of piece of mind, wish I had the nerve to burn it to the ground, my greetings for a god unwanted in my heart.

What else should I give? What else do you need? How many days we have to waste until you see? Should I disappear? Would I make it clear? How many words we have to waste until you'll see? There is no need to waste your questions in my face. Why do we have to feel this emptiness of feelings? How long does it take? How long does it take for you to see inside of me? What else should I say? Would you play my game? No need for us to waste another day again. Should we run away where no trouble stays? Would you trust in me that we could reach in such a place? There is no need to waste your questions in my face. Why do we have to feel this emptiness of feelings?

A little room for you and me, a better way for me to be, the silver ring on my left hand, a child to give a bit of sense, a little rush to warm the blood, some piece of mind for me to hold, a day of rest to cool the brakes, a meaning for my damn mistakes. Well, it's taking too long, and it's taking me all and it's taking too much, so i blame lack of touch, the touch of my best friend. A silent nest to hear myself, one way to love my gods again, you smile to keep the trouble out, a friend to reach when I am down, a dear mother waiting home, the coffee flavor down the hall, few simple words "my son, you're great, you bring me joy with all you make..."

Simple smile we cannot fake, little meanings we forget, come on, don't start falling on me now. Promises we make and brake, dear friend we cannot save, come on, don't start falling on me now. It's all on myself. Broken dreams we use to feel, hidden wound we cannot heal, come on, don't start falling on me now. Little tricks we have to learn, trust each other when it hurts, come on, don' start falling on me now. It's all on myself. So close your eyes, I don't wanna be turn out into stones, give me a lighter and let me be gone. Traces that are left ahead, for the friend we love to death, come on, don't start falling on me now. Things that choose us 'till we bleed, meanings that we have to steal, come on, don't start falling on me now.

Just get a life son, just get a life and your day will come, just let it come, son, an open heart and no fears behind. Too much dust, too much dust in your eyes, on your soul, and you're sick and tired of all, but you have to stay in the line, cause your life ain't mud all the time. Keep yourself in line, release your perfect smile, forget the friend who lied and breathe with arms wide open one more time. Just put your smile on, just let it talk for the sake of your word, just keep your head high, just watch your step while you're climbing on life. Too much dust too much dust in your eyes, on your soul, and you're tired and ready to fall, but you have to stay in the line, cause your life ain't mud all the time.

I try to hide, to disappear, to let you think that I don't feel, well, you don't play that game... Just take a dive inside my eyes, dismiss the clown and give some life, so now we're in your game... How can I keep your trace away, desire versus conscious faith? I am in your face again. Bad judgement and a day in vain, a smile got hurt, no words to say, until the next time. It's out of my hands, out of me, can't run away from you... I try but isn't good enough, the little tricks run out of gas, just when you come around. The way you see through all my walls, the player's tired when you call, I'll lose the bet again. How can I keep your trace away, desire versus conscious faith? I am in your face again. I guess I'll take the worse of me, the way I am, a blind must see, you'll find a better man.

Have to feel, it's sort of a human need, stupid heart... Have to ask, keep surfing against my past, it might heal. Have to smile, there's someone in need outside, I should give. Have to trust, there's feeling beneath the dust, could be real. Take the demons out of me. Nobody guesses what I'm living when the time falls asleep. Keep on dreaming on her lies and forget about the earthly sunset of her eyes… Solitude claimed my way, made me strong... Bless the loss, the grief and the friend I've lost proved me wrong... Take the demons out of me. My father is watching from the ceiling, holds me till I fall asleep. I'm still dreaming of his smile, can't forget about the friendly sunshine of his eyes and I cry from time to time and I lie and pretend that everything is all right.

Refuse to build a stinking hole of compromises served in gold, well, that's not me, that can't be me. Refuse to trade myself away, a day of fame for my own name, well, that's not me, that can't be me. Feel alive, so I'll live alive until the end! Refuse to waste the child in me, the little spot left clean and free, well that's not me, that can't be me, Refuse to share the golden dreams of all the clowns entitled kings, well that's not me, that can't be me. Feel alive, so I'll live alive until the end!

Don't tell me that you need me now, divided heart is all we have, a lot of dust is all I can give, can't find a meaning for this end... Release your day, don't keep it longer, a better one stays in the line. Can't kill the smile that lies behind me, it's time to run. Somehow I'll keep on living alive to live September days, somehow I'll keep on running away from you. You'd rather hide yourself away, just take your chance when I am not there. Can't kill the smile that lies behind me, no place to run. Somehow I'll keep on living alive to feel September days, somehow I'll keep on running away from you. I'm stuck in a moment, which keeps us alive I'll dream of September, don't wake me up, I'm trapped in a place, where we do belong, I dream of a lifetime. I'll be reaching home soon, find my little lost child, I'll be reaching home soon, I'm already home, in my heart I feel home. I'll be reaching home soon, find my little lost child.

Fear buying trust, devotion placed inside my dear best friend, sacrifices holding keys of better ends. Bought a little dream, ahead the careless was becoming Jesus, it's all gone. Where did all go away, where did all? Wasting all my fears, little hand was always there to guide me, memories are digging, crawling for an end. Gifts from the unseen, the little boy was, smiling, living, changing in a better man. Where did all go away, where did all? Now give your hand to the little rock that stands behind you, right on your footsteps, your very best, your very best friend. Little boy was running, fearless, with broken arms wide open, sacrifices holding keys of better ends. colored dreams were healing, pushing blood inside your hidden black thoughts, it's all gone.

Too much trouble in your head, let it out, your time to change, when you climb you can fall. Too much fear in your eyes, do not let your beauty die, cannot leave me alone. For the one you live and breathe, for the child you dream to feed do not let yourself fall! For the madness of the world, for the tears you had to drop, where is sadness, there's hope. Can I give hope of deliverance? Can I heal wounds of indifference? Too much trouble in your head, let it out, your time to change, when you climb you can fall… For the madness of the world, for the tears you had to drop, where is sadness, there's hope. Can I give (Can I give you hope? Just let it all in) hope of deliverance? Can I heal (For the little child we'll keep on dreaming) wounds of indifference?

What I am is not enough to help you dreaming. What I give it doesn’t heal, your scars are bleeding. What I take from you it hurts and keeps me mad, I should be giving. What I am is not enough. What you need is out of us, can't reach it smiling. When you fall I kiss the dust, I guess we're sharing. When I'm down you dive with me together till we reach the bottom. What I am is not enough. So what you need from me? You should not buy what you can take for free, I'm so much less than what you're looking for, you see me better, well, I have seen it all, I’m not enough.